The grace we seek is indifference. In Ignatian vocabulary, this term does not mean an unfeeling lack of concern. Instead, indifference means that we hold all of God’s gifts reverently, gratefully, but also lightly, embracing them or letting them go, all depending on how they help us fulfill our vocation to love in everyday, concrete details.
The Grace I Seek
I pray for the following graces: a deepening awareness of my fundamental vocation to praise, love, and serve God and others; a desire for greater indifference in my life; a willingness to embrace who I am before our loving God.
Last night I read Still by Lauren Winner, in one big gulp. I'm sure I'll be going back to it. But right now I 'm thinking about how our fundamental vocation is to praise, love, and serve God. What Lauren found, in the end, was that if she put her butt in the chair, she started to "get it" again...the connection, the meaning, the purpose. So even if we don't feel like praising, loving, and serving, if we put ourselves in the place where that is happening, it's likely to stir in us again.
A good word for me. I have gotten out of the habit of regular worship and of participating in church events during the week while Ken's been sick. It's time to look at getting my butt back in those chairs.
And indifference? Still working on letting go of some big, old things.
