She responded to me in this blog post. Wonderful thoughts and advice and some more in the comments. Thank you!
Why? I'm in therapy and have been, off and on, for many years. But I am looking for something different than that. I am facing a crossroads place in my life; it seems likely to me that anyone who serves as a cancer caregiver may do so. I have ideas about what comes next, but my goal is to find someone to help me discern what my path should be with relation to the way I am to serve God and others in the world.
My first impulse when looking at any sort of new thing in my life is to READ READ READ about it. I've done some of this on the internet. I have not yet read the two books she recommended, and I think it's providential that my library has neither of them. I remember my sister once saying to me, as I dove into a new thing, "You have too much information. You need to sit with this for a while."
Yes, sit with it, pray on it, whatever you call that.
So I'll order one of them, but not until the new month starts (with its new money!) :)
I've looked at the website for Spiritual Directors International and in my immediate area I find a male Methodist minister and a Roman Catholic laywoman who appears from her photo to be younger than I am. Hmm. So I am thinking about that. I have preconceived ideas about both of those folks, and that's silly and unfair. :) I also found some intriguing possibilities a bit farther afield (this is a big Metroplex with oh, so many people in it!)
Universe? God? I'm open. Not reading. Listening.